life... through my eyes!!! :)

Tu hai kaha?? tell me when I’ll get to see you… “A simple description by a girl describing, how she feels when he’s not coming to school…” It was after the break that we came back from home and all set to bombard hundred of jokes on you and your friends; it was heart breaking to see that, you were not sitting at your usual place with a poker face...darn :P. 2 nd day of the school your absence is present and the emptiness of your absence, murmured to me, that you might be out of town and now that you are gone…it’s so hard to live with the feeling that I can’t make fun of you anymore; more than this I miss your voice gosh! It is truly mesmerizing. But god knows what the heck! Is wrong, you are nowhere to be seen. Where have you gone? “aab toh sach me... I miss you… yaar… :P” it’s another thing that you have no clue about it nor anyone else has been brushed with doubt that there can be something like this dancing in my mind all this time…but it is also a fact t...

A typical story of a girl and a Snobbish Moron... :D God knows what is going inside your head, you are so unpredictable… man!!… and your stupid poker face, and those I hate this entire world looks…ahh!! what to say… ‘Killer’ with a capital ‘K’. But today it’s not about you or about your looks or your attitude; today it’s about what the heck! is going inside your head?? Please… whatever it is, give it a KITKAT Break… “ KITKAT   break toh banta hai yaar… ” I mean the story “ jo abhi tak hai nai…par ho jayegi..koi nai dude, shit happens in life…   :P ” that story is complicated… now it’s your turn to tell me how it feels to find me deny your existence even though you are there in front of me, it’s your turn to tell me how it feels when I play ‘I ignore you and you see me’ game; I don’t know what goes inside your head, but trust me it’s really fun to play this game ;) :D. You keep on giving everyone “I hate you looks” all day long, “ kabhi toh muskura diya karo mere...

"I do not believe in aiming for the stars; i rather wish to go in search for new galaxies" "Life is too short to be understood; so just love it for HOW IT IS and LIVE IT AS IT IS ." "If you like someone go ahead and speak to him/her; do not play game of "You see me and I see you", coz you'll end up playing this game forever and life will move on to another phase... and all you will be left with, will be regret."  "Little things give you happiness that you can live your entire life with... this little thing can be a simple SMILE too... :)"

It all started even before I knew your name and I never knew we will ever even end up at the same place, you and I were part of crowd, until I saw your eyes and when you spoke I got lost in your voice, your voice enchanted me into another world and since then all I see is your eyes and all I want to hear is your voice; then I saw you looking at me and I knew I stepped a step closer to you but still your eyes said something that your actions never agreed on, and I knew it’s just a game of time, but I’m a player and even this game attracted me, so even though I never wanted to still I’m here playing with you... and there went the game of “You see me and I see you...”   Do not let your eyes do the talking this time, because they say things, that your actions contradict every time, I don’t know why they speak of some buried pain to me, when everyone reads it as Attitude with a capital ‘A’. They say you are not worth the soft corner in my heart, but my mind says… no there is so...

How bad I miss you today my friend… :'( :'( There was a time, when we were unaware about each others' existence, then we met each other all by an accident, we took our time and found that we were so different...still lot alike and in a matter of a little time, we became True friends… and today I miss you so bad… my friend… I feel so alone… my joys  aren't  complete because they don’t have your ‘HIGH FIVES’, my heart is not at peace because your ‘POOR JOKES’ ain't there to wipe my tears off... You are not just someone I need to share, what is going inside me… you are my confession room, you are my secret box, you are my sister, you are my savior… you are my personal diary (just human  natured)  :'))... But today when I feel like I’m trapped in a labyrinth of questions and confusions… of which I can’t get out… I wish you were here to pull me out… I feel like I’m left alone in a dark room… trapped with gloominess and a fear…of what I don’t know… we have be...

Everything has changed ‘cause time never stop for anyone but I need someone to help me figure out why nothing seems to change for me and around me… why is it that I still stand where I was yesterday…But today… today is different, today I feel different I feel like things might change now, earlier I felt so departed from this home and things that I live with but today a sense of belongingness has swept over everything ,a strange nostalgia connects me to every part of the home and my things. Strangely a sense of ‘MINE’ has covered my entire home. But I am happy because, finally I see my life is getting a push towards a change, I am eager to see what life has in its sack for me to offer in coming time. Everything around me seems to open its arms and trying to embrace me in the whirlpool of memories inside these four walls, they are reminding me of all the tears I cried inside them, all the moments when I danced with happiness and all of the bitter sweet moments that we lived toget...

I am a bird, let me fly... I am a breeze, let me glide... I am a kid, let me explore... I am puzzled, let me find my way on my own. I am tired, let me breathe... I am hungry, let me eat... I am human, free me to live.... I am not a fish, still you want to see me swim... I am not a horse, that you expect me to race and win... I am not a butterfly, still you want me distinguished. I am a bird, see me fly... I am breeze, close your eyes and feel me soothe your pride... I am explorer, watch me find my new destination... I am ME, DON'T TRY TO MAKE ME SOMEONE ELSE...

How hard it is to sometimes say what you really feel inside, I hate those few times when you do everything against your wish, those moment when you’re puppet controlled by someone else. Nobody can possibly understand what a person like me would feel when is asked to do things totally against one’s wish, but only fact that I go on doing that is that I care about the people around; people I call family. But the only regret in my heart is that those loved one’s don’t understand sometimes what I truly desire, for them it seems like an unacceptable wish of a teenage girl. My question to them is why my desires seem to them just an unacceptable thing, if I can subdue my wish for them, can’t they just give a second thought to it???? But I know and I truly understand why they don’t give a second chance; and it will be foolish of me if I don’t consider their point of view. But again the fact remains unchanged if I can do that why can’t they??? I guess it’s a fact that I should leave on time ...

Sometimes I really do not understand why things which seemed quite settled suddenly get messed up and we are left scratching our head wondering  “where did I go wrong?” and we have no answer to that question and all we can do is just wonder and wonder… life is so unpredictable that it now scares me what if I go wrong anywhere, what if I lose my way? Am I gonna find a way back to the right path or I’ll be lost in the web and labyrinth of the desires and dreams of others and ultimately, I will lose MYSELF  and if I lost ‘ME’ there will be nothing left… right now if someone asks me what scares me the most it’s the fear of losing ‘MYSELF’…life has shown me many up’s and down’s but all those time I somehow stuck to myself but today I feel like slowly…slowly I’m losing the essence of myself … I’m getting far far away from who I used to be and who I am today… I feel like I’m losing ‘ME’. People change and I will admit even I have changed and I have drastically and changed in s...

This one is for all the beautiful ladies who have taught me at school & college, the basics of subjects like English, Geography, Science and Economics and today more about the depth of life, the list is not very long but the contribution of each and every teacher has been very significant… The first one Nalini ma’am . One the lady who I look up to today and she’s what courage means when it comes to a women, she and I haven’t met in years going to be a decade soon, but her spirit and outlook towards life makes me further proud that she was my teacher once and why was, she is… even today I learn so much from her each day and I would thank facebook where I found her years later and at a glance recognized her and I’m connected to her; even though being miles away from her I somehow am able to live every moment that she shares with us, I love to be there when she smiles and cries, may it be a news of new laptop or Kabir’s new drawing, though I have never met this little guy ...

Yes, I’m just a girl from the Crowd of billion, and I have dreams and desires like hundreds of other people called ‘THE CROWD’; but what makes me one among the billion is my will to stand up for my dreams ,my belief of placing my dreams in this real world. People of my age group are considered as ‘Teenagers’ put to educated peoples’ language; “kids who can’t be considered as kids anymore but can’t even be mistaken as adults “How easy to say and so difficult to understand! So my question is who are we actually??On the other hand if we say in the laymen’s language ‘Teenagers’ are “kids who start their journey of life from here, where they learn to grow up from being a kid to acting and behaving an adult.” Some of you may think that I’m misleading the topic; no I’m very much into it. WORLD, such small word but, covers all movables and non-moveable’s things…………I’m just an eighteen year old girl, for whom the life’s a new game to be played each day, a joke. Life’s all about h...

My life is perfect absolutely perfect…Perfect with a capital P…but it’s me who ain’t perfect for it…I have everything That a person of my position and age should have, Branded clothes, latest gadgets, a ride…everything liberty, freedom to an extent but still so much perfection ain’t perfect for me...I’m not a bird to be kept in a gold cage, I’m a wanderer of open sky…I don’t need to be told what is good for me...or where my destination lies, I wanna fly and find it on my own…but in my perfect life I’m told everything…from A to Z…from how to breathe to how to sleep…I’m told everything. I know I’m confused of where my goal lies, but let me surf through the storm…let me find it on my own where I belong…let me fall, let me hit the ground, because how long I’m gonna walk with crutches…but my loved ones love me a lot and they just do not want to understand that I just do not fit in this perfect life. I need to be left on my own…I do need them always beside me…but I don’t need to be guarde...