life... through my eyes!!! :)

How hard it is to sometimes say what you really feel inside, I hate those few times when you do everything against your wish, those moment when you’re puppet controlled by someone else. Nobody can possibly understand what a person like me would feel when is asked to do things totally against one’s wish, but only fact that I go on doing that is that I care about the people around; people I call family. But the only regret in my heart is that those loved one’s don’t understand sometimes what I truly desire, for them it seems like an unacceptable wish of a teenage girl. My question to them is why my desires seem to them just an unacceptable thing, if I can subdue my wish for them, can’t they just give a second thought to it???? But I know and I truly understand why they don’t give a second chance; and it will be foolish of me if I don’t consider their point of view. But again the fact remains unchanged if I can do that why can’t they??? I guess it’s a fact that I should leave on time ...

Sometimes I really do not understand why things which seemed quite settled suddenly get messed up and we are left scratching our head wondering  “where did I go wrong?” and we have no answer to that question and all we can do is just wonder and wonder… life is so unpredictable that it now scares me what if I go wrong anywhere, what if I lose my way? Am I gonna find a way back to the right path or I’ll be lost in the web and labyrinth of the desires and dreams of others and ultimately, I will lose MYSELF  and if I lost ‘ME’ there will be nothing left… right now if someone asks me what scares me the most it’s the fear of losing ‘MYSELF’…life has shown me many up’s and down’s but all those time I somehow stuck to myself but today I feel like slowly…slowly I’m losing the essence of myself … I’m getting far far away from who I used to be and who I am today… I feel like I’m losing ‘ME’. People change and I will admit even I have changed and I have drastically and changed in s...